I do.
I sit down with my kids to play cars or pretend I am some character and it is virtually impossible for be to be fully in the moment. (at least 92.5% of the time) My heart wants me to be present for them, to be fully engaged in their excitement. I can just think of 103 other things that need to be done or that I would rather be doing.
That is not to say that I can't sit down and snuggle, read, build, play board games or do art projects with them. I just am not good at pretending to be a character of any sort and creating this elaborate scene for them to float in and out of. I struggle.
I grasp for the moment and watch it blow by into the next room. "Come back!", I say to the moment... "I did not seize you!"
I will continue to reach for that moment and sometime, when I least expect it, it will be seized!
It's hard to be "be" for me too. Trying and struggling to be in Erisa's world, and missing. She misses me and I misses me in there. But there are friends to share now. It's getting hard to be in her world with her growth. So I'm challenging me differently to shine my world, so that she will be interested in:-) I still struggle to be "be" with her though, with relax like you said. I think it's really important.
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